Half past six in the morning

It has come to the point (again) where I would lock myself up in my room. 

I shut myself up from the world besides V, DB and my cousins. They're probably the only ones I talk to (even though its just through what's app). 

By saying I shut everyone up means, I stay at home the entire day unless I meet DB, but just to have dinner/supper. Also, I just sleep through the day when everyone is awake. I am only awake at let's say 5-6pm, then I would have a meal (yes one meal per day. Sleep takes away the hunger pangs), followed by being glued to the sofa watching tv or glued to my bed with the laptop and just watching shows till the sun rises at 7am. Yup, this routine has been repeated since last Thursday. Oh I need to add a point, I actually like the feeling of crying and hiding under my blanky while watching shows, especially Korean dramas. When V asked me what have I been doing, I gave her this answer and her reply was, "YOU NEED TO STOP IT." 

I really enjoy the comfort I receive from my bed. As cliche as it sounds, my bed (and my soft toys) doesn't judge me and will always be there for me. Ha ha ha I sound psychotic.

Or maybe im just afraid to let people in again. Because I know they will leave eventually. 

The thoughts I have really do scare me.