A closure has finally been made. Mixed feelings about it though. Firstly, I feel glad that this waiting has come to an end and also because I get to finally know what they truly feel about me. On the other hand, I feel regretful and sad that this friendship I had with the six of them have come to an end. Okay, not really an end because we can still be friends, but y'know not that close girly girlfriend kind of friendship anymore. Not the friendship where I can caption photos or whatsoever as "had a good day with the girls/ my girls". No more hanging out as a clique anymore. No more karaoke sessions (even though I am always awkward). No more celebrating birthdays with surprises anymore. No more looking forward to Korea/ Hongkong or any other trips. With all that have been said, yup, things will definitely better if it remains like this. No more looking back and I am just gonna deal with it. Still, I wanna thank the six of you for being there when I had that major break up, seeing me through Os, encouraging me not to give up when I received my results, giving me your outmost support when I entered SIM, and all those minor stuffs like when I needed to rant.... There is just too many to be listed out but I am sure you get it.
I have thought of making this site private after knowing that you have been reading it. I don't know what the purpose is, but I would like to think that you're just concern and just want an update of how I am living my life. To be frank, I wanted to cut off everything like unfollowing on twitter and instagram to save myself from getting hurt during this hiatus period between us. Then it hit me that, R did the same to me (as well as everyone else) and I know what it feels like. Its like leaving things hanging (still clueless about R) and just running away from everything. How on earth did R managed to do that??
Okay, its time I really DEAL with it. Its time I face the music. I will not cut off any "connections" and I shall just embrace myself for what is gonna come in the future.
To make myself feel better, BFF V is coming back in 5 weeks. I am so exciteddddddd. Indeed, I DO feel ALOT better. Can't wait to just meet her and squeeze my fatty.
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